to my angel

My dearest baby girl,

We discovered we were expecting you months ago, after many pregnancy tests and thinking you would never be we were so excited you would make Livia a big sister and us your proud parents.

At first the days and nights were rough you made me sick ALL the time, onions were the enemy. Daddy brought home some take out asian food after school one night, I was in the bedroom and he was in the family room and the smell came into the room under the door and that was it I was sick all night ... on top of that I wanted to sleep 24/7. 3 months went by and I thought it would stop but it kept on and on christmas day I felt worst, I was losing hope of feeling better for the rest of the pregnancy. But then out of no where at 4 months I was clear of the sickness ! I could enjoy my days again ! We got to see you bouncing around at 11 weeks and again at 23 weeks where I felt you move for the first time. You were bouncing around and waving at us and we found out you were a girl ! We were so excited and asked Livia what she wanted to name you she yelled out DOAAAAAAAAA for her favorite character Dora the Explorer. We decided against that unfortunitly for Livia :P

You've made me crave so many things, at one point I could not eat a meal unless it was a craving I had to crave my meals and when I did only that one thing would do .. nothing weird but nothing ultra healthy eather ... If I could live on a Dairy Queen diet I would. During your stay in my tummy I turned 30 .. yes the big 3-0 but it's ok im ok with it ... I think heh. I have so much to be proud of at my age that it's just an age at this point. Your daddy threw me a surprise party where all my wonderful friends came to celebrate and your aunt Lili bought me a Dairy Queen Blizzard extreme chocolate cake YUM. And your big sister is turning 2 next week ! Also daddy got his Bacc at the university. He worked so hard for it !

I have to say for the rough start of my pregnancy you are being great at letting mommy sleep at night ... Your sister kept me up all night while I was pregnant with her ! I started getting heart burn but I think that's just because I'm not eating dinner lately, I haven't been hungry in the evening. Your sitting very low in my tummy and I thought for sure you were a boy.

So you see my little angel, you are coming so soon ... im 31 weeks preggers and we can't wait to meet you ... And Livia can't wait to be a big sister !

See you soon my love ...

mommy .. x0x0x

popcorn review #1

Ok So i've been a long time fan of popcorn of all sorts ... and pretzels .. they are my favorite snack .. but I usually go for the low fat non butter popcorn but since i've been preggers iève decided to dump the low fat and eat what I damn want :P i've been experimenting with different kinds of buttery microwavable popcorns and have had some great ones and some not so great ...





Today I had:

Orville Redenbocher's Ultimate butter ... sounds super buttery and good but im dissapointed at how it makes the house smell like super gross chemically butter and it doesn't offer that much in taste ... it's just salty and greasy .. and makes my microwave pretty buttered ... Maybe that's where all the butter goes ... So far im only eating the rest of the box coz I bought a box of 6 but I don't think I will be running to the store to get more of this brand.

I give this 3 pops outta 10 ...

not worth the extra calories.

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I took Livia to the doctor's yesterday and apparently she is above average in height but she is underweight ... and I wonder how accurate the charts are .. I mean she has a little buddah belly and even has a little round face with abit of a second chin ( beby chubby chin ) she is not overweight but hardly underweight .. she eats very well all her veggies and meat and all and I don't feed her junk food, sometimes i'll give her a sweet treat but it's usually something healthy and im not about to let her go on a mcdonald's diet ... anyway I was abit insulted to be told she is underweight ... I mean her pants aren't falling off ... sometimes she goes on a hunger strike but it doesn't last that long and she is a runner she is always on the go ... so I just think she is an athlete and the doctor is talking outta her ass :P

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Livia has been mimicking me alot lately .. she'll walk around with her play phone having huge conversations with whoever is on the other side of the fake connection and she'll even throw in a few giggles here and there to sound like she actually is talking to someone and they said something so funny. She likes to include Dora and Diego in her talks and all the kids at daycare to ... she cracks me up .. she is a little actress I love it !

passe carreau

Today is a gorgeous day ... sunday is getting out of the house day and doing whatever we didn't do saturday ... today was haircut day for Livia ... I took her to get her haircut and was trying to tell the woman what i wanted but she was determined to give her the "rounded" hair cut. I didn't really catch what she was saying I just knew I didn't want her to have the bowl haircut so i said just layers and straight at the bottom no funny stuff .. well she did what she wanted .. and good thing my friend Lili was with me coz Livia was lobsided, one side of her hair was longer then the other ... anyway it's done now and it will grow back but I went to a place I thought was gonna be real good since they charge 21$ for just a cut ( Melonhead at place d'orleans) I won't be going there anymore ...

I think the woman watched to much of Passe-Partout as she gave Livia the Passe-Carreau haircut :

potty shmotty ...

wow I went to pick up Livia today from the babysitter's and she had little Dora underwear on ! I was so proud of my little girl not even 2 yet and she is almost potty trained ... still well into he process but it's a huge accomplishment that she managed to wear those underwear all afternoon with no accidents ! I don't think i ever said it on here but we are really lucky to have the babysitter we we have ... she is like Livia's second mom ... She is a super babysitter and mom herself to 2 cutie boys !

So I recently started reading the blog of a friend of my former roommate Beck ... this lady is doing reviews on chocolate bars .. a bar a day ... I do eat chocolate but im not that much of a sweet tooth ... i prefer salty stuff .. my faves being pretzels and popcorn .. lately i've been experimenting with all sorts of popcorns and yeaterday i realised .. i should review them as some have been great and others not so great .. so the next bag of popcorn i will make I will share my comments on ... but im not doing the 30 day thing like you Erin or else i'll urn into a popcorn !

bloody knee

When I was a kid I used to play jump rope on the curb trying to gain my balance while jumping .. of course that resulted in many falls and knee scrapes .. When your a kid and scrape your knee it hurts like your dying but after mom cleans it up and puts a band aid on it your fine and get right back to what you were doing that made you fall in the first place ...

Today I was dropping Livia off at daycare .. I get out of the car and go to open the back door and WOO I slip on a patch of ice and land right on my knee, I get right up but geez that hurt ... memories from my childhood came flooding in. But my knee was hurting and burning. Livia was just sitting there wondering what happened, I had to wait before I took her out of the car seat i wasn't as brave as I was when I was a kid .. I didn't have my mom to clean it and put a band aid on it and make it all better.

I got home and cleaned it up but it wasn't the same ... being older and not having mommy to make it better sucks :P

i'm on the phone

She was eating macaroni salad and all I could hear was "lo?" "lo?" her way of saying hello. I turned to look, at every little macaroni she would put it to her ear like a little telephone and speak into it and listen ... it was to cute ... she kept doing it with each and every macaroni ...

I am tired .. and it's getting old .. I am missing out on the peak energie boost im suppose to be experiencing at this point in my pregnancy .. and why might you ask ?? well all because of this little thing called the Thyroid gland .. ugh .. what a struggle it's been to get it right .. I have hypothyroid, have had it since I was 15 .. so about 15 years ago .. and still it's not right .. the pregnancy does affect it but god it's draining me at this point .. im in bed at 8 and asleep by 8:15 and I even would nap if I could ...

My 30th birthday is coming up on the 19th and i'm not sure what to think of it ... panic, jump for joy, be proud of where i'm at, freak out and become a hermit, wear t-shirts that say I'm 30 and insert nifty saying here: ________??? Or just keep going like I have been ... one thing is for sure I need to be smart with money .. im way to impulsive and let my self be tempted by little things we probably don't need .. im not a selfish shopper .. most of the time the stuff is for Livia or for the man ... but still it's money I need to put away ... for the next series of income tax ugh .. yup .. my birthday is surrounded by money grabbing events ... including; income taxes, permit renewal, plate renewal... insert whatever else you wanna insert that can drain my money and not give me anything fun in return !!!

the test of life...

I'm having one of those days where I feel like a pretty crappy mom.

Livia was invited to her first real birthday party. A friend I used to work with invited me, it was her son's 5th birthday. Well it went a little like this:

Livia arrives and decides to be super scared, ok I can understand she doesn't know anyone .. but i've never seen her like this before .. she was clinging for dear life to come up in my arms. Well I have my big belly and I can't really hold on to 27 lbs for that long, but she wouldn't have it any other way ...

Then we go off to the kitchen to do a craft and she did fine their .. but then all hell broke loose when she saw the berries on a little table her high .. she wanted down from the table and NOW and then she was just wolfing down the berries like I hadn't fed her in 3 weeks .. I was trying to stop her nicely but she would not have it .. and just wanted to stuff her face ... well im sorry but she has to share with all the other kids and well they are not Livia's big plate of berries so i took her asside and told her "They are not all for you, you have to share" she starts to ball her eyez out and then the tantrum she was kicking me in the stomach and then i had to put her down so she lied flat on her stomach and started doing that thing we all hate ..kicking the ground and screaming ... full on tantrum ... and crying super loud .. of course all the other kids are well behaved and just watching her have this tantrum ... I was ready to leave .. but then I figured no I have to stick this out and learn from this .. but it was getting harder and harder ... then the gifts came.. the boy loves Dora .. well Livia loves Dora ... she would just go up to him and pull on all his gifts that had Dora on them ... oh and guess what the theme of the party was ? DORA ! ugh

then a clown came into the picture .. she was super scared but then she warmed up and had fun but then heard stirring in the kitchen and ran off to go look at what was going on ... oh well food of course and once again my little malnourished baby girl was screaming for food ... ugh embarassing ... she layed flat in the kitchen and pulled the same tantrum i wrote above ...So of course I had to ask for some to give her ... everyone then ate and the cake came out ... a DORA cake ... insert freaking out of excitement like it was her own party Livia here ... and then she did what a Dora freak would do and stole the Dora characters from the boys hands ! ...

Ok I had it .. it was time to go ... I lasted from 10am to 1pm but it felt like a 12 hour party ... I was done .. we headed home, she fell asleep, it was a 7 minute ride home .. I try to take her from the car seat to the bed .. nope didn't work now she's wide awake ..I leav eher in her crib to see if she'll talk herself to sleep.

Meanwhile i go in my bedroom and break down ... I cry for a good 10 minutes .. not knowing what else I could have done to make this more enjoyable ... then comes the hubby to ask me what is up .. and I just ball saying I feel like I don't know anything about raising my daughter and really it scares me to death .. she doesn't listen .. I try everything .. i don't give in... i'm firm but at the right moments ... still she won't listen ...

to make matters worst she hasn't eaten her dinner in like 3 nights ... she won't even taste it ... ugh

It was just a horrible day :(