pants...

I think teens have the right idea when they go out to school and public places with pj pants ... im carrying so low this time that even maternity pants are driving me nuts ... the pressure on my lower abdomen is unberable. I constantly feel crampy and uncomfortable .. I get home and have to put my mc hammer pj pants that the man loves ( sarcasm) so much ... He actually tried them on the other day to laugh at me .. I bought them at the Superstore as they were on sale and I got them in XL so they would sit super loose around my waist but he laughs at me everytime i wear them ... oh well he doesn't know the feeling and until he does well MC hammer pants it is for me ! and normal pants for him ... If I could go out in a moomoo I would but in the -20 temperature I don't think it's a good idea !

The bus strike is finally over ... I'm so happy we were allowed to work from home during this nightmare of a strike .. I can only imagine the nightmare for those that actually NEED the bus to get around ... I have a car and it was a headache with all the traffic ... but the fact that I hae to go back INTO the office means I have to wear pants, not mc hammer pants ... real pants ... maybe i'll sneak my pj pants when im in my cubicle. I can just picture it now ... Ok ladies we have a meeting with the Directors ! DAMN !!

it's a

Girl ... we are having another girl, it's so exciting. I wish ultra sound technicians would have a bit more understanding of what it means to a couple to know the sex of the baby and not just shrug it off as nothing .. when couples want to know THEY WANT TO KNOW ... the first time I asked he said meh it's legs are crossed can't really see .. i said "can I walk around and shake and see if they uncross ???" he said "fine" so I did and the baby did uncross and their it was ...a GIRL ! and Livia well she wants to name her DOAAAAAA after Dora the explorer of course ! we are really happy!!

We picked up Livia from her babysitter today and she was playing in the snow .. i hadn't seen her play in her full on snow suit yet so it was great to see ! she looked so happy .. but like a big marshmallow man .. i figured she had her snowpants on so we played more in the snow when we got home .. I had to run and get my camera .. I got these shots ..

itchy scratchy ...

I'm feeling this itchy and scratchiness in the back of my throat ... not looking to good. i really don't want to be sick .. i'm limited as to what i can take.

so I've fallen in love with the whole digital scrapbooking idea I am following this blog and this person is creating these awesome digital scrapbook pages .. why have I never seen this before .. i've always felt guilty for not starting Livia's scrapbook but i just didn't like the styles out there but digital !! wow you can do so many cool things and then get them printed .. I can finally put my graphic design skills and education to the task ! I am just amazed at all of it I spend most my evenings reading about it and thinking of how I will get started, i have tons of pictures on my computer adn this is what they have been needing and wanting for so long ... to be part of some cool project ! so digital scrapbooking here I come !

I had a real good evening with my family this saturday ... we had a pot luck at my aunt's new place and picked out numbers to try and become millionaires ( 6/49 had 43 million to win ! ) we waren't succesful but we had a great night .. played abit of Wii and ate lots of great food and that was that ! I can't wait till the next time !

what are your special skills or hobbies you wish you had more time to do ?

baby brain

I had total baby brain, I arrived at my exam and i had all theinfo in my head but i didn't know where what went ... their was 3 questions i answered all 3 and i finished early and I decided that was that i was done .. the lady asked me you don't want to review ?? I said I did and I was done. Thing is I did what i could do and if I stayed there and reviewed I would have probably panicked and changed my answers and then wish i hadn't anyway I really don't think i'll get it their was 21 people that did the eam and their is one position but atleast i know next time that i studied the right stuff .. i just need to not be preggers haha .. I have so much trouble concentrating ...ugh

on another note here are pics of the cake I made for our nephew's 4th birthday ... Like I said not my favorite but it was a success he enjoyed it ...

moving up...

I decided I was ready to move up in my career and tried on a few competitions. Well I got an email inviting me to an exam and it's today .. im a little worried as I haven't written an exam for that level and I really want to move up, i'm ready. Ideally I wanted to stay on my team, my supervisor was successful in a manager competition so she might be leaving anytime soon .. so it would be nice to get that job but that competition for that level wasn't assessed yet so I have to do what a girl has to do and that's try for other jobs. The only thing I fear is that fact that i'll be going on mat leave end of May so that might be an issue but we'll worry about that when the time comes. The exam is at 11am.

Then I have to run back to make it on time for a back massage, this guy is only in on thursdays and I HAVE to see him. My back is so sore and it hurts just to sit of stand .. he will save me, he must save me !! My first pregnancy I went to see this guy and he helped me so much... what blew me away is that he is blind and yet he found all the spots that were killing me and more .. I recommend him to anyone that lives near by ! He has the most beautiful dog to ! his work dog .. it was abit akward at first to have a dog looking at you but he's so well behaved, I wanted to take him home !

Then it's our nephew's birthday party ... I took on the task of making the cake and usually I am really satisfied with my cakes but i'm dissapointed with this one .. it's not up to my standards. I think I really hate working with regular icing .. i've definitly become a fondant girl .. Livia's cake is already being thought of ... I have a really good idea what I will make ... I didn't have time to make fondant for this cake for tonite. I'll take a picture for those of you who have seen my other cakes you'll see what i mean ...

like I said...

Like I said my little Livia is a little bundle of attitude and personality. My favorite thing lately has been her random kissing rampages ... she starts by kissing me or her dad and then she takes turns kissing each of us one after the other .. it makes me melt, i'll never get sick of it .. it's so random and that's what I love about it .. yesterday she did it at daycare to all the kids (4 boys) yikes we will have to watch that heart breaker !!

::lounging around::
*she figured she could pull one of her little wooden chairs to put her feet up .. she cracks me up*



:: side note ::
kids say the darnest things .. The oldest boy at daycare once said "When Livia gets older can she sleep over ??" hmmm I have news for you young man ! When Livia is older is when we don't want her to sleep over !! hah but it was cute.

::preggers update::

So i'm 21 weeks preggers .. wow it has flown by ! I was soooooooo sick for the first 4 months. When I passed the 3 month mark I felt like oh nooo im still sick, with Livia it stopped 3 months to the date ! so it got me worried. I thought damn why did we decide to do this ... and now I feel 100% better *knock on wood* I've been experiencing other discomforts, my lower back is killing but I have booked a massage tommorow and my masseus works wonders .. he does accupressure .. it hurts right off the bat but afterwards I feel great for a few weeks anyway .. I tried spa massages and they make me feel worst so scratch that ... anyone who wants to donate massages i'll take take take :P haha

I feel bad for this pregnancy though .. I haven't been writting down anything .. I don't even feel pregnant it's sad coz when I had Livia I had this book I wrote everything in ... all the symptoms I had all the movements all the cravings .. but this time around I just don't feel like it .. I don't feel like reading about anything to do with pregnancy .. I remember all the symptoms though so I think i'll make myself go buy a book and write them down for baby #2's sake ...

that is all I have to say about that ...

boy or girl ?

Next wednesday ( jan 28th) we will find out if we are having a boy or a girl.

I don't know how those people that don't want to know can do it .. the fact that we CAN know is enough for me to not pass up that oppurtunity. I know our mothers couldn't find out until pop ! we were their but now we have the technology and I just can't let that slide ! I like surprises but not that kind, I like to be ready and be able to buy all the clothes for the specific gender.

Another girl would be nice coz we have so much clothes with tags still on from Livia that she never got to wear .. I have 4 boxes of clothes for a girl ! But a boy would be nice to as we would have a little bit of both !

I'm trying to teach Livia that I have a baby growing in my tummy but I think she doesn't get it as she just says NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO or maybe she does understand and she really doesn't want one but she is such a little mommy to her dollies that I think deep down she can't wait to be the big sister ! She will be so caring and nurturing. And full of attitude !

To get to the attitude .. it's more like personality, when she wants something she knows how to get it ... when she wants to touch something she is not allowed to touch she still finds a way to touch it just to test our limits .. it's hard not to laugh the little faces she makes are priceless .. sometimes I see alot of me in her and it scares me .. I was hard headed ... and I think she will be to ... yikes !

passing on ...

My biggest fear is death, death for myself, family, friends, even strangers ... It's something we can't avoid but it just doesn't change how scared of it I am.

I consider myself lucky i've never lost anyone other then the recent passing of my granfather about a week ago ( Jan 9) the reason I consider myself lucky is that my granfather was the oldest person close to me and well he had a great life and lived it to it's fullest. My granfather was a fighter, someone anyone would be proud of to have as a husband, father, granfather, great granfather, friend, etc... He was dedicated to the well being of others and had the best sense of humor right up to his passing. He made everyone smile, he made me smile ... He was a very social, heck I think he had a more social life then I do !

You always wish you had done more, that you had spent more time with the person. I feel that way but at the same time I charish the moments I did have with him and that my daughter got to meet him and spend time with him. I'm happy I got to show him my ultra sound pictures for the next baby, he said he thought child birth was a miracle ( which it is ) and he was amazed at the pictures of the little one.

I will miss him so much .. but I will take what I have come to learn from him and add them to my life values.

Je t'aime grand-papa, tu me manque enormement ....

Change

I decided I needed to start this up again .. I had trouble identifying what kind of blog I wanted and my old one was stuck in a rut I thought I knew what i wanted to write about but then i totally lost track and some how some where my blog just got lost and boring. I didn't feel like I wanted to go write on it anymore.

Anyway I'm starting over, and my resolution is to write more. I used to write so much on lj but my life has changed so much since those days and don't get me wrong it has changed for the better. I have a family now something I am so proud of !