to the boiling point ...

words or sayings that drive me nuts : ( in no specific order)

knicknacks
shananigans
touch base
from the get go
calin ( french )
ayoyeeeee ( french )
guestimate
KODAK ( french ) meaning a camera but it's the brand not the camera !

anyway these are words I hear now and then and gringe ...

I do hope Livia and Eva never use them.

something I must confess...

I've had all the time in the world to get this blog up and going and haven't really ... I think I am studying other people's blog so i can figure out what i should write about ... i used to have a livejournal and i wrote o much in their but the drama of a 20 something year old has come and gone and I'm now 30 and no longer have drama to talk about ... it's sad but at the same time it"s great .. I sorta was getting afraid it would never go away !!

I stumbled upon something today ... a site that prints all your blog entries into a book you just type in which blog you want to turn into a book and they do it for a decent price .. i think it's a brilliant idea i wish livejournal would be part of the list of blogs that can be printed. This blog is pretty boring .. but i now have decided i'm gonna do this for my daughters as I would want a book of my mothers' life and stuff we did when we were growing up ( I have pictures but blogging is so much more detailed !) so I am really gonna commit to this ... I know I must have lost all my followers but this is not aobu tthat anymor e..

the new addition to the family !

Ok so lou lou suggested that i should post pictures and announce my new addition ! Duh I know I should and it's not the time that I lack of it's more that im being lazy .. anyway so here goes ...

Eva Sofia, born June 2nd at 11:39am weighing 7lbs, 2 ounces, 19.7 inches. via planned c-section. everything went 100% better then the last time. And I am so greatful that I decided to go with the planned c-section and not try a VBAC ... geez I know I woul dhave had the same situation had I tried the VBAC so anyway everything went super good .. I was walking the next day and trying to show them that I was all good to go home but they still kept me for the full 4 days ugh ! how exhausting ... I coul dnot wait to get to sleep in my own bed ... it was hell at the hospital ... you learn to appreciate your bed once you sleep 3 nights at the hospital on the plastic mattress ... heh ..

Eva is doing great gaining weight and breastfeeding like a little trooper .. every thing is to perfect she sleeps long hours at night only waking once around 1am ish to eat and then 6 -6:30 am ... and the rest of the day she sleeps and only cries to eat ...

Im loving being a mom for the 2nd time around .. you learn to appreciate those moments where you have a newborn that doesn't move and get into everything and your running around all the time trying to keep them out of all the dangerous places ... anyway I don't know how they did it in the old days with 10 children coz just the 2 that I have I find it hard to manage while im feeding one and need to entertain the other ... the man has been at home but he's heading back early as he has realised he can't really take 11 weeks of Livia saying PARK PARK PARK everyday and crying and having a fit till he takes her .. so he's taking his 5 weeks of paternity leave and then back to work ... I can't really blame him but now that means I don't go back to work until Eva is almost 1 ... that scares me abit coz im totally a career woman ... I love my daughters .. but I remember last time I was anxious to get back to work ... I start feeling bored after abit ... I need that career woman side. Is that wrong ?

Here are pictures of my cutie pie !

scary spooky empty room ...

My little Livia has been sleeping in a big girl bed for a little over a month now and was doing great but this week I was sick and coughing so much that I guess i was waking her up. She would get out of bed and knock on the inside of her door super loudly ! I would open the door and bring her back into bed at it was 12am or 4 am or whatever am ... anyway 2 nights ago she woke at 12am and i took her back to bed but she wouldn't take it she wanted DORA I took her back to bed and said no it's sleep time it's still very dark out. Anyway on the fourth time of her knocking on the door I became very awake and just decided I would try and lay next to her in her bed ... well that worked except I so didn't want to start that habit but figured in a few days all our lives will change and we will no longer be 3 so I better take advantage of it and just lay with her till she falls back asleep ... she started whispering ¨chtaime maman¨ which means I love you mommy and ugh it melts my heart when I hear her say it as she puts so much love into her voice and grabs my arm to caress it ! Anyway after a while she falls asleep but im left wide awake and kind getting creaped out ... her room seems so big and empty and you can hear the noises from the furnace and just not a cozy feeling ... so I decided to do something about it ... we hadn't had time to properly fix up her room but figured if we atleast got the bed set up that would be good but after sleeping in the creepy huge room I needed to fix it up for her to be warm and inviting .. so yesterday my wonderful parents came to help me and boy did we spice up the room, my dad built the dresser we had ordered and put up frames and a mirror and I added the little touches like photos in the frames and her little lamp and baskets with all her teddys and another with books set up next to her laz boyish princess chair and seriously that made a huge difference ! now I feel better that my little girl is not in this scary empty room ! I bet you she wasn't even affrais but gosh I was haha :P

woah la batman ...

so things have turned for the freaking out ! the hospital called and they changed my date to the 2nd ... which means i lose 3 days of prep and I've taken my sweet ass time to get to all the stuff i wanted to get done as i have a major head/chest thing going on that is knocking me out :(

i didn't know they could bring it forward i thought they could push it later but not forward ... the man has a mid term at university to do on the 4th and the 5th was going to be perfect ... good thing i decided to take an extra week off work i was gonna stop working June 1st !! geez ... Don't get me wrong im super excited just wish i would have done more earlier !

mark your calendars !

Friday June 5th 2009, is the day our lives will change once again for what I like to believe is the better :) The birth of our 2nd baby girl. To think only 4 years ago I was just meeting my guy and getting to know him and now 4 years later I have a fiance, a beautiful toddler girl and another baby girl on the way .. a beautiful house and a great job ... im set .. life could not be better ... well unless I could just get rid of a few bills but other then that I am very blessed !

Eva we can't wait to meet you baby girl :)

homestretch

So people im on my homestretch I only have about 3 weeks left ! nuts how this pregnancy went by so fast .. last time it was dragging. i feel abit overwhelmed by all I need to do before the baby gets here but then people remind me if that stuff isn't done WHO CARES ... but then i think I care coz I stress over little things like dishes in the sink even though it seems like their is always dishes in the sink either clean or dirty ... Livia's room is half done and babies room to ... but half is not good enough i want done ! you know ?

So my little princess turned 2 a few weeks back .. and now is in her big girl bed and she is doing great ! She was so ready, she is sleeping like a champ !

I haven't been updating coz i've been busy doing websites, working and sleeping .. im so exhausted it's crazy ... i don't know how I will make it till May 29th ( my last day of work )

Tommorow I find out my c-section date !!

to my angel

My dearest baby girl,

We discovered we were expecting you months ago, after many pregnancy tests and thinking you would never be we were so excited you would make Livia a big sister and us your proud parents.

At first the days and nights were rough you made me sick ALL the time, onions were the enemy. Daddy brought home some take out asian food after school one night, I was in the bedroom and he was in the family room and the smell came into the room under the door and that was it I was sick all night ... on top of that I wanted to sleep 24/7. 3 months went by and I thought it would stop but it kept on and on christmas day I felt worst, I was losing hope of feeling better for the rest of the pregnancy. But then out of no where at 4 months I was clear of the sickness ! I could enjoy my days again ! We got to see you bouncing around at 11 weeks and again at 23 weeks where I felt you move for the first time. You were bouncing around and waving at us and we found out you were a girl ! We were so excited and asked Livia what she wanted to name you she yelled out DOAAAAAAAAA for her favorite character Dora the Explorer. We decided against that unfortunitly for Livia :P

You've made me crave so many things, at one point I could not eat a meal unless it was a craving I had to crave my meals and when I did only that one thing would do .. nothing weird but nothing ultra healthy eather ... If I could live on a Dairy Queen diet I would. During your stay in my tummy I turned 30 .. yes the big 3-0 but it's ok im ok with it ... I think heh. I have so much to be proud of at my age that it's just an age at this point. Your daddy threw me a surprise party where all my wonderful friends came to celebrate and your aunt Lili bought me a Dairy Queen Blizzard extreme chocolate cake YUM. And your big sister is turning 2 next week ! Also daddy got his Bacc at the university. He worked so hard for it !

I have to say for the rough start of my pregnancy you are being great at letting mommy sleep at night ... Your sister kept me up all night while I was pregnant with her ! I started getting heart burn but I think that's just because I'm not eating dinner lately, I haven't been hungry in the evening. Your sitting very low in my tummy and I thought for sure you were a boy.

So you see my little angel, you are coming so soon ... im 31 weeks preggers and we can't wait to meet you ... And Livia can't wait to be a big sister !

See you soon my love ...

mommy .. x0x0x

popcorn review #1

Ok So i've been a long time fan of popcorn of all sorts ... and pretzels .. they are my favorite snack .. but I usually go for the low fat non butter popcorn but since i've been preggers iève decided to dump the low fat and eat what I damn want :P i've been experimenting with different kinds of buttery microwavable popcorns and have had some great ones and some not so great ...





Today I had:

Orville Redenbocher's Ultimate butter ... sounds super buttery and good but im dissapointed at how it makes the house smell like super gross chemically butter and it doesn't offer that much in taste ... it's just salty and greasy .. and makes my microwave pretty buttered ... Maybe that's where all the butter goes ... So far im only eating the rest of the box coz I bought a box of 6 but I don't think I will be running to the store to get more of this brand.

I give this 3 pops outta 10 ...

not worth the extra calories.

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I took Livia to the doctor's yesterday and apparently she is above average in height but she is underweight ... and I wonder how accurate the charts are .. I mean she has a little buddah belly and even has a little round face with abit of a second chin ( beby chubby chin ) she is not overweight but hardly underweight .. she eats very well all her veggies and meat and all and I don't feed her junk food, sometimes i'll give her a sweet treat but it's usually something healthy and im not about to let her go on a mcdonald's diet ... anyway I was abit insulted to be told she is underweight ... I mean her pants aren't falling off ... sometimes she goes on a hunger strike but it doesn't last that long and she is a runner she is always on the go ... so I just think she is an athlete and the doctor is talking outta her ass :P

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Livia has been mimicking me alot lately .. she'll walk around with her play phone having huge conversations with whoever is on the other side of the fake connection and she'll even throw in a few giggles here and there to sound like she actually is talking to someone and they said something so funny. She likes to include Dora and Diego in her talks and all the kids at daycare to ... she cracks me up .. she is a little actress I love it !

passe carreau

Today is a gorgeous day ... sunday is getting out of the house day and doing whatever we didn't do saturday ... today was haircut day for Livia ... I took her to get her haircut and was trying to tell the woman what i wanted but she was determined to give her the "rounded" hair cut. I didn't really catch what she was saying I just knew I didn't want her to have the bowl haircut so i said just layers and straight at the bottom no funny stuff .. well she did what she wanted .. and good thing my friend Lili was with me coz Livia was lobsided, one side of her hair was longer then the other ... anyway it's done now and it will grow back but I went to a place I thought was gonna be real good since they charge 21$ for just a cut ( Melonhead at place d'orleans) I won't be going there anymore ...

I think the woman watched to much of Passe-Partout as she gave Livia the Passe-Carreau haircut :

potty shmotty ...

wow I went to pick up Livia today from the babysitter's and she had little Dora underwear on ! I was so proud of my little girl not even 2 yet and she is almost potty trained ... still well into he process but it's a huge accomplishment that she managed to wear those underwear all afternoon with no accidents ! I don't think i ever said it on here but we are really lucky to have the babysitter we we have ... she is like Livia's second mom ... She is a super babysitter and mom herself to 2 cutie boys !

So I recently started reading the blog of a friend of my former roommate Beck ... this lady is doing reviews on chocolate bars .. a bar a day ... I do eat chocolate but im not that much of a sweet tooth ... i prefer salty stuff .. my faves being pretzels and popcorn .. lately i've been experimenting with all sorts of popcorns and yeaterday i realised .. i should review them as some have been great and others not so great .. so the next bag of popcorn i will make I will share my comments on ... but im not doing the 30 day thing like you Erin or else i'll urn into a popcorn !

bloody knee

When I was a kid I used to play jump rope on the curb trying to gain my balance while jumping .. of course that resulted in many falls and knee scrapes .. When your a kid and scrape your knee it hurts like your dying but after mom cleans it up and puts a band aid on it your fine and get right back to what you were doing that made you fall in the first place ...

Today I was dropping Livia off at daycare .. I get out of the car and go to open the back door and WOO I slip on a patch of ice and land right on my knee, I get right up but geez that hurt ... memories from my childhood came flooding in. But my knee was hurting and burning. Livia was just sitting there wondering what happened, I had to wait before I took her out of the car seat i wasn't as brave as I was when I was a kid .. I didn't have my mom to clean it and put a band aid on it and make it all better.

I got home and cleaned it up but it wasn't the same ... being older and not having mommy to make it better sucks :P

i'm on the phone

She was eating macaroni salad and all I could hear was "lo?" "lo?" her way of saying hello. I turned to look, at every little macaroni she would put it to her ear like a little telephone and speak into it and listen ... it was to cute ... she kept doing it with each and every macaroni ...

I am tired .. and it's getting old .. I am missing out on the peak energie boost im suppose to be experiencing at this point in my pregnancy .. and why might you ask ?? well all because of this little thing called the Thyroid gland .. ugh .. what a struggle it's been to get it right .. I have hypothyroid, have had it since I was 15 .. so about 15 years ago .. and still it's not right .. the pregnancy does affect it but god it's draining me at this point .. im in bed at 8 and asleep by 8:15 and I even would nap if I could ...

My 30th birthday is coming up on the 19th and i'm not sure what to think of it ... panic, jump for joy, be proud of where i'm at, freak out and become a hermit, wear t-shirts that say I'm 30 and insert nifty saying here: ________??? Or just keep going like I have been ... one thing is for sure I need to be smart with money .. im way to impulsive and let my self be tempted by little things we probably don't need .. im not a selfish shopper .. most of the time the stuff is for Livia or for the man ... but still it's money I need to put away ... for the next series of income tax ugh .. yup .. my birthday is surrounded by money grabbing events ... including; income taxes, permit renewal, plate renewal... insert whatever else you wanna insert that can drain my money and not give me anything fun in return !!!

the test of life...

I'm having one of those days where I feel like a pretty crappy mom.

Livia was invited to her first real birthday party. A friend I used to work with invited me, it was her son's 5th birthday. Well it went a little like this:

Livia arrives and decides to be super scared, ok I can understand she doesn't know anyone .. but i've never seen her like this before .. she was clinging for dear life to come up in my arms. Well I have my big belly and I can't really hold on to 27 lbs for that long, but she wouldn't have it any other way ...

Then we go off to the kitchen to do a craft and she did fine their .. but then all hell broke loose when she saw the berries on a little table her high .. she wanted down from the table and NOW and then she was just wolfing down the berries like I hadn't fed her in 3 weeks .. I was trying to stop her nicely but she would not have it .. and just wanted to stuff her face ... well im sorry but she has to share with all the other kids and well they are not Livia's big plate of berries so i took her asside and told her "They are not all for you, you have to share" she starts to ball her eyez out and then the tantrum she was kicking me in the stomach and then i had to put her down so she lied flat on her stomach and started doing that thing we all hate ..kicking the ground and screaming ... full on tantrum ... and crying super loud .. of course all the other kids are well behaved and just watching her have this tantrum ... I was ready to leave .. but then I figured no I have to stick this out and learn from this .. but it was getting harder and harder ... then the gifts came.. the boy loves Dora .. well Livia loves Dora ... she would just go up to him and pull on all his gifts that had Dora on them ... oh and guess what the theme of the party was ? DORA ! ugh

then a clown came into the picture .. she was super scared but then she warmed up and had fun but then heard stirring in the kitchen and ran off to go look at what was going on ... oh well food of course and once again my little malnourished baby girl was screaming for food ... ugh embarassing ... she layed flat in the kitchen and pulled the same tantrum i wrote above ...So of course I had to ask for some to give her ... everyone then ate and the cake came out ... a DORA cake ... insert freaking out of excitement like it was her own party Livia here ... and then she did what a Dora freak would do and stole the Dora characters from the boys hands ! ...

Ok I had it .. it was time to go ... I lasted from 10am to 1pm but it felt like a 12 hour party ... I was done .. we headed home, she fell asleep, it was a 7 minute ride home .. I try to take her from the car seat to the bed .. nope didn't work now she's wide awake ..I leav eher in her crib to see if she'll talk herself to sleep.

Meanwhile i go in my bedroom and break down ... I cry for a good 10 minutes .. not knowing what else I could have done to make this more enjoyable ... then comes the hubby to ask me what is up .. and I just ball saying I feel like I don't know anything about raising my daughter and really it scares me to death .. she doesn't listen .. I try everything .. i don't give in... i'm firm but at the right moments ... still she won't listen ...

to make matters worst she hasn't eaten her dinner in like 3 nights ... she won't even taste it ... ugh

It was just a horrible day :(

one gone ...

Item #1 on the Agenda
So one 1kg strawberry costco container gone, 1 to go ... it breaks my heart to share them with anyone ... The hubby looks in the fridge WOW we have tons of berries .. ugh yeah they are MINE hands off ... I shared a few with Livia but it brough tears to my eyes as she made faces at every bite she took, like she didn't like them ... I kept telling her it's ok to leave them if you don't want them .. Mommy we'll gladly finnish them !

Item #2 on the Agenda
Are you one of those people or part of a family where the hubby HAS to take out the snowblower for every little snow fall ... ??? We'll our neighbour is and it drives us nuts. It takes the hubby less time to shovel all our snow then it takes for this guy to snowblow 1 cm of snow ...

Item #3 on the Agenda
Livia is learning so many new things lately. She was going through a book and naming all the animals in her own way ... she is really good at saying "abeille" it's bee in french and she tries to say hypopotame which cracks me up ! she also yells the answers to Dora's questions on the TV she is really good at finding the answers ... You really have to listen to her words as sometimes they are french and other times they are english ... she yells BACKPACK but then sometimes says it in french "Sac à dos" Love it !

Item #4 on the Agenda
I was watching the show "The Doctors" today and they brought up the woman that had the octuplets .. and they showed a clip where Katie Couric asked her if they had warned her of birth defects and she said of course they did and then she said and you wanted to take that chance with 8 embryos ... not just try to implant 3 or 4 ... and she said she wanted the 8 ... This whole story is sad .. but it's true when you get pregnant nobody asks you can you afford a baby .. they just assume you've got what it takes ...

Monsters inc.

We introduced Livia to Monsters inc ... and I thought it was a bad idea, maybe she would be scared of her closet after but nope she wants to watch it over and over again. And for now I don't mind but im sure when I get to the 5th time of watching it I will get really sick of it. Today though is an exception. Our sitter is sick with the stomach flu and so is her son so I am working from home, I don't have a choice I am swamped. I have to admit I love having loads of work but not when I have to work from home with Livia around. I told my boss i'd take a family related leave in the AM but would work during nap time but so far so good Monsters inc has been a great babysitter. I hate parking her infront of the tv but I don't have much of a choice right now .. the hubby has used up all his family related leave and I still have 2 left.. but yeah the swampped thing doesn't help a whole lot .. I'd love to take her out but it's not in the cards today.

Guilt is in the air ... she doesn't seem to mind or hold it against me ... the good thing is I get random kisses and hugs here and there .. Love it ! :)

small meals

I've been really lazy lately, maybe not lazy but not in the mood to eat a real big meal .. I like to have all these little things that are somewhat good for me ... or not until I'm full. I've been really into strawberries and I had this craving for very buttery popcorn, frosted mini wheats, blueberry bagels with light strawberry cream cheese, not all together but probably one after the next until im pleasently full. I haven't wanted the normal meat, veggie and potatoes. I try to make meals for my hubby and Livia but im not interested in eating it myself, so I wait till Livia is in bed and then I eat my sweet little nothings ...

the hubby had the stomach flu earlier this week and I was so affraid to get it or for Livia to get it so I cleaned cleaned cleaned .. I felt like a freak but the last thing I need is for Livia to be throwing up non stop .. knock on wood that we won't get it ... he's feeling much better .. but I still feel cautious near him heh.

im craving strawberries as I sit here ... thank god for costco they save me ! 4.99$ for 1 kg of berries that I eat in like 2 days !

22 weeks gone by ...

I'm only 22 weeks pregnant god can it be more depressing ... it feels like i'm 40 weeks ... everything feels squished I really feel like their is not more room in their .. but I've only gained 6 lbs so far ... I get these updates from babycentre and they say right now is the peak where i should feel great ! wow am I not their or what !?? I really don't feel like all that and a slice of bread ! I feel like humegous and an 18 wheeler ! tired all the the time, sore all over... yeah you get the picture ... but yes yes i'm lucky to be pregnant and I can appreciate that .. i have so many friends having a hard time ... it's like we go part of our adult life worrying about getting pregnant and when we are ready someone gives us a hard time ... We'll for some that is ... then their are the lucky ones like me. So yes i'm complaining about all these physical crappy things but I know their is worst in the world .. i'm not that heartless ...

secret hidding spots....

When something goes missing the first thing you do is try to find the guilty party. When that guilty party swears they are not at fault you start wondering if you have lost your head or what ? For examples we've been losing our library cards and other not so important cards around the house ... The hubby had just gotten a new library card and then it went missing again ... he is not the most organized person in the world so I figured it's probably in a pile of papers somewhere. So he went and got another ... we got home and were just sitting around when Livia wanted to play with an old gift card that no longer had any money on it ... I often let her play with cards I don't use she actually looks like a little shopper trying to put it in her pocket ... but this time she went straight to her big lounging chair and we saw her shove it in the seat cushion.... I told the hubby "get her ! " so he got her before she could stuff it deep into the abyss of the unknown, but then I started wondering, is this where all the cards went to die ?? and to our surprise, YES there they all were .. the library cards ( she even got the new one the hubby just got that day, in there !!) some points cards, old gift card ... we just felt like wow we have solved that mystery ...

Now if we could only solve the mystery of socky heaven !!! where are all the other socks !

names ...

I've been struggling with my name all my life .. I love my name but english people butcher it .. no offence to my english friends I just don't like it when you say your name and then someone repeats it with their own pronounciation right after the fact. I have a few friends that say it correctly and then their are the others that I just gave up trying to make them say it the right way because well I know what they mean...

I am having to do the same for my daughter as people add an "O" to her name or a "D" we went for a short name so it would not be complicated for people to say it but we are constantly having to corect people on how they say it .. it's not a hard name L-I-V-I-A but we get Olivia, Lidia I don't know if I should keep correcting people .. I sorta feel rude when I say "It's LIVIA". But their is someone we see pretty much everyday that calls her Olivia and she's known her for a few months now but I just don't know how to tell her in a nice way "it's LIVIA" without sounding snotty or rude ...

Am I the only one annoyed with this ??

pants...

I think teens have the right idea when they go out to school and public places with pj pants ... im carrying so low this time that even maternity pants are driving me nuts ... the pressure on my lower abdomen is unberable. I constantly feel crampy and uncomfortable .. I get home and have to put my mc hammer pj pants that the man loves ( sarcasm) so much ... He actually tried them on the other day to laugh at me .. I bought them at the Superstore as they were on sale and I got them in XL so they would sit super loose around my waist but he laughs at me everytime i wear them ... oh well he doesn't know the feeling and until he does well MC hammer pants it is for me ! and normal pants for him ... If I could go out in a moomoo I would but in the -20 temperature I don't think it's a good idea !

The bus strike is finally over ... I'm so happy we were allowed to work from home during this nightmare of a strike .. I can only imagine the nightmare for those that actually NEED the bus to get around ... I have a car and it was a headache with all the traffic ... but the fact that I hae to go back INTO the office means I have to wear pants, not mc hammer pants ... real pants ... maybe i'll sneak my pj pants when im in my cubicle. I can just picture it now ... Ok ladies we have a meeting with the Directors ! DAMN !!

it's a

Girl ... we are having another girl, it's so exciting. I wish ultra sound technicians would have a bit more understanding of what it means to a couple to know the sex of the baby and not just shrug it off as nothing .. when couples want to know THEY WANT TO KNOW ... the first time I asked he said meh it's legs are crossed can't really see .. i said "can I walk around and shake and see if they uncross ???" he said "fine" so I did and the baby did uncross and their it was ...a GIRL ! and Livia well she wants to name her DOAAAAAA after Dora the explorer of course ! we are really happy!!

We picked up Livia from her babysitter today and she was playing in the snow .. i hadn't seen her play in her full on snow suit yet so it was great to see ! she looked so happy .. but like a big marshmallow man .. i figured she had her snowpants on so we played more in the snow when we got home .. I had to run and get my camera .. I got these shots ..

itchy scratchy ...

I'm feeling this itchy and scratchiness in the back of my throat ... not looking to good. i really don't want to be sick .. i'm limited as to what i can take.

so I've fallen in love with the whole digital scrapbooking idea I am following this blog and this person is creating these awesome digital scrapbook pages .. why have I never seen this before .. i've always felt guilty for not starting Livia's scrapbook but i just didn't like the styles out there but digital !! wow you can do so many cool things and then get them printed .. I can finally put my graphic design skills and education to the task ! I am just amazed at all of it I spend most my evenings reading about it and thinking of how I will get started, i have tons of pictures on my computer adn this is what they have been needing and wanting for so long ... to be part of some cool project ! so digital scrapbooking here I come !

I had a real good evening with my family this saturday ... we had a pot luck at my aunt's new place and picked out numbers to try and become millionaires ( 6/49 had 43 million to win ! ) we waren't succesful but we had a great night .. played abit of Wii and ate lots of great food and that was that ! I can't wait till the next time !

what are your special skills or hobbies you wish you had more time to do ?

baby brain

I had total baby brain, I arrived at my exam and i had all theinfo in my head but i didn't know where what went ... their was 3 questions i answered all 3 and i finished early and I decided that was that i was done .. the lady asked me you don't want to review ?? I said I did and I was done. Thing is I did what i could do and if I stayed there and reviewed I would have probably panicked and changed my answers and then wish i hadn't anyway I really don't think i'll get it their was 21 people that did the eam and their is one position but atleast i know next time that i studied the right stuff .. i just need to not be preggers haha .. I have so much trouble concentrating ...ugh

on another note here are pics of the cake I made for our nephew's 4th birthday ... Like I said not my favorite but it was a success he enjoyed it ...

moving up...

I decided I was ready to move up in my career and tried on a few competitions. Well I got an email inviting me to an exam and it's today .. im a little worried as I haven't written an exam for that level and I really want to move up, i'm ready. Ideally I wanted to stay on my team, my supervisor was successful in a manager competition so she might be leaving anytime soon .. so it would be nice to get that job but that competition for that level wasn't assessed yet so I have to do what a girl has to do and that's try for other jobs. The only thing I fear is that fact that i'll be going on mat leave end of May so that might be an issue but we'll worry about that when the time comes. The exam is at 11am.

Then I have to run back to make it on time for a back massage, this guy is only in on thursdays and I HAVE to see him. My back is so sore and it hurts just to sit of stand .. he will save me, he must save me !! My first pregnancy I went to see this guy and he helped me so much... what blew me away is that he is blind and yet he found all the spots that were killing me and more .. I recommend him to anyone that lives near by ! He has the most beautiful dog to ! his work dog .. it was abit akward at first to have a dog looking at you but he's so well behaved, I wanted to take him home !

Then it's our nephew's birthday party ... I took on the task of making the cake and usually I am really satisfied with my cakes but i'm dissapointed with this one .. it's not up to my standards. I think I really hate working with regular icing .. i've definitly become a fondant girl .. Livia's cake is already being thought of ... I have a really good idea what I will make ... I didn't have time to make fondant for this cake for tonite. I'll take a picture for those of you who have seen my other cakes you'll see what i mean ...

like I said...

Like I said my little Livia is a little bundle of attitude and personality. My favorite thing lately has been her random kissing rampages ... she starts by kissing me or her dad and then she takes turns kissing each of us one after the other .. it makes me melt, i'll never get sick of it .. it's so random and that's what I love about it .. yesterday she did it at daycare to all the kids (4 boys) yikes we will have to watch that heart breaker !!

::lounging around::
*she figured she could pull one of her little wooden chairs to put her feet up .. she cracks me up*



:: side note ::
kids say the darnest things .. The oldest boy at daycare once said "When Livia gets older can she sleep over ??" hmmm I have news for you young man ! When Livia is older is when we don't want her to sleep over !! hah but it was cute.

::preggers update::

So i'm 21 weeks preggers .. wow it has flown by ! I was soooooooo sick for the first 4 months. When I passed the 3 month mark I felt like oh nooo im still sick, with Livia it stopped 3 months to the date ! so it got me worried. I thought damn why did we decide to do this ... and now I feel 100% better *knock on wood* I've been experiencing other discomforts, my lower back is killing but I have booked a massage tommorow and my masseus works wonders .. he does accupressure .. it hurts right off the bat but afterwards I feel great for a few weeks anyway .. I tried spa massages and they make me feel worst so scratch that ... anyone who wants to donate massages i'll take take take :P haha

I feel bad for this pregnancy though .. I haven't been writting down anything .. I don't even feel pregnant it's sad coz when I had Livia I had this book I wrote everything in ... all the symptoms I had all the movements all the cravings .. but this time around I just don't feel like it .. I don't feel like reading about anything to do with pregnancy .. I remember all the symptoms though so I think i'll make myself go buy a book and write them down for baby #2's sake ...

that is all I have to say about that ...

boy or girl ?

Next wednesday ( jan 28th) we will find out if we are having a boy or a girl.

I don't know how those people that don't want to know can do it .. the fact that we CAN know is enough for me to not pass up that oppurtunity. I know our mothers couldn't find out until pop ! we were their but now we have the technology and I just can't let that slide ! I like surprises but not that kind, I like to be ready and be able to buy all the clothes for the specific gender.

Another girl would be nice coz we have so much clothes with tags still on from Livia that she never got to wear .. I have 4 boxes of clothes for a girl ! But a boy would be nice to as we would have a little bit of both !

I'm trying to teach Livia that I have a baby growing in my tummy but I think she doesn't get it as she just says NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO or maybe she does understand and she really doesn't want one but she is such a little mommy to her dollies that I think deep down she can't wait to be the big sister ! She will be so caring and nurturing. And full of attitude !

To get to the attitude .. it's more like personality, when she wants something she knows how to get it ... when she wants to touch something she is not allowed to touch she still finds a way to touch it just to test our limits .. it's hard not to laugh the little faces she makes are priceless .. sometimes I see alot of me in her and it scares me .. I was hard headed ... and I think she will be to ... yikes !

passing on ...

My biggest fear is death, death for myself, family, friends, even strangers ... It's something we can't avoid but it just doesn't change how scared of it I am.

I consider myself lucky i've never lost anyone other then the recent passing of my granfather about a week ago ( Jan 9) the reason I consider myself lucky is that my granfather was the oldest person close to me and well he had a great life and lived it to it's fullest. My granfather was a fighter, someone anyone would be proud of to have as a husband, father, granfather, great granfather, friend, etc... He was dedicated to the well being of others and had the best sense of humor right up to his passing. He made everyone smile, he made me smile ... He was a very social, heck I think he had a more social life then I do !

You always wish you had done more, that you had spent more time with the person. I feel that way but at the same time I charish the moments I did have with him and that my daughter got to meet him and spend time with him. I'm happy I got to show him my ultra sound pictures for the next baby, he said he thought child birth was a miracle ( which it is ) and he was amazed at the pictures of the little one.

I will miss him so much .. but I will take what I have come to learn from him and add them to my life values.

Je t'aime grand-papa, tu me manque enormement ....

Change

I decided I needed to start this up again .. I had trouble identifying what kind of blog I wanted and my old one was stuck in a rut I thought I knew what i wanted to write about but then i totally lost track and some how some where my blog just got lost and boring. I didn't feel like I wanted to go write on it anymore.

Anyway I'm starting over, and my resolution is to write more. I used to write so much on lj but my life has changed so much since those days and don't get me wrong it has changed for the better. I have a family now something I am so proud of !